Entry 1: Peace and growth – a letter to my body and its many parts, and the universe (based on internal family systems)
As I begin writing I feel so sensitive. My Hairs dance, raising to the sound of music and birds, and relax, as I enter into a writing flow state. I am immersed in sensory information. As I take a deep Breath — breathing in, breathing out — the Smell of coffee satisfies. As I Listen — café sounds are no distraction, but instead blend into the experience of Now. I feel connected to Body. The Muscles in Abdomen and Chest are relaxed. I feel Warmth, despite how cold it is. It feels so nice for Stress to let go a little, now that he has played his part. I guess Stress was a necessity, because Body was trying to get Attention, to tell me that with Brain alone I would not find Peace; for Peace lives within Body. You knew that the challenges of life must be faced with both Body, and Brain. And so together, You, Universe, have allowed me to feel Stress’ brother, Peace.
Thank you for coming, Peace. I’ve been looking for you for so long. I wondered where you had gone, and I’m sorry that I didn’t know that you lived within Body. I have chased so many pleasures. I have chased so many curiosities to find you, and I have no regrets, but thank you for getting my attention with your brother Stress’ help. Please teach me to know you, to learn from you and to hold you close. I do really need you Peace, and if Brain ever forgets, please remind me with sensations in my body, and to not fall into the trap of trying to operate with only Logic and Reason, from up above.
I feel more balanced. I like connecting with both Brain and Body. It’s like my mind has a bridge and natural awareness to the sensations I am feeling in my body, but sadly, the path is narrow, and neurons few, for it has not been travelled much. Please Body, Brain and Universe, continue to help me to make this Path well trodden. May Path, become part of us, one of the team.
I have always known that Path existed, but it is as if I excommunicated him from our “team” a long time ago, when I gave into Distrust. I thought that you, Body, from which Intuition and Peace arise, had betrayed me; when in fact it was you, Distrust. You came out of the shadows in Brain, to protect me, and thank you – I appreciate you, how you tried to help me. I have listened to you, and you still have a part to play, so please do not entirely go away, but now protect me, alongside your brother, Trust. I know it will take time to work together, but I know that you will find the right balance. And as I let you back into my life, Trust, my stomach and my abdomen feels alive, so please keep Distrust in check. Listen to him, support him and together I trust that you will look after me.
And now, while drawing upon the entire Self, I come back to the present moment, to reflect on this beautiful trip in Amsterdam, which you Universe have used as a place to expand my awareness.
Consent to share was given.
Comments